XOXO Honey Bii
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Showing posts with label Rainbows. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Rainbows. Show all posts
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Monday, November 25, 2013
Love Does Not Equal Hate
Marinate on this one. How easy is it to criticize and tell what you don't like about a person?
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Freaks
This is the situation, I'm a straight female however, for a little over 3 years i have been curious about being with other women and i have always been into girl on girl porn and whenever i watch girl on girl porn i tend to get really excited if you know what i mean. in a way that i dont get when just watching a girl and a guy go at it. also i would have actual dreams of which i would be with a woman doing sexual things. also i like to watch a woman's ass when she walks but a lot of time i try not to do cuz i feel like other people notice im watching .
So anyway fast forward i meet this female who is about 7 years older than me from offline who is bisexual and married.
we quickly befriended each other. long story short she was my first girl on girl experience. i lied to her at first about being with women before, i had told her that i had been with at least 3 women before which wasn't true. Anyway this female ended up spending the night at my house and we slept in the same bed and i dont know what it was but something inside of me told me to take the plunge and to just touch her as my curiousity was like a pang in my side.
so anyway i took the initiative and started to touch her but then she flipped it on me and took control. i couldnt believe what i was getting into. That night i couldnt believe myself and i found myself at war with my soul. everything felt so good and my body felt like literally i could melt right there on that bed. but after all was said an done i felt huge guilt and dirtyness after doing what i did almost as if i was disgusted with myself. thinking to myself like how could i allow a another woman to do what she did and that god must really hate me now.
fast forward again we did it again on 5 other different occasions with each time being better than the last.
i noticed after awhile i started to actually have feelings for her on a deeper level however i dared not to let her know that. i would feel butterflys and basically the same feelings i use to get with men are the same feelings i had for her which scared me but also had me confused.
now my things with men is that i havent been with a guy since 09 which is my daughter's father and yes i do get a lot of men trying to talk to me but i just dont be interested and what mainly turn me off from talking to any guys rights now is that usually that 9 times outta ten no matter how classy i carry myself they seem to have no respect and just only out to use u for sex and just the idea alone just makes me not even think about them like that i just focus on work and school.
back to the situation with this female , its like now ithat i've experienced being with her on those occasions it's like all the time i feel like my body crave a woman's touch like 24/7 its on my mind. and its like i seriously enjoy touching her squeezing her,tasting her. but now i think i am giving her the impression that i want to be more than friends with her ( which would be nice) and now i feel like she is trying to play me. like if u watch my video where im talking about liars im really talking about her in da video.
even when we outside i just feel like a dog in heat and be so ready to just hump her ass or whatever but because we outside i try to contain myself. she gave me my first multiple orgasm back to back i didnt even know what my body was going through when it first happened and NevER in my life have i ever experienced that with a man.
but the problem that i have is that ,i always feel like this and i still find myself trying to hang on to this female even though she likes to lie a lot but i try to hang on because of fear that i may not experience this ever again because nobody knows anything about this but me and her. it just right now at this time my mind is scared that i may be gay and its like i would prefer to have be intimate with a woman than a man anyday.
i never felt anything so passionate and sensual and being with her just feels like my body was being neglected until i met her. i dont know of any better way to explain it.
like what do i do and how do i accept these feelings that i have and how do i meet other females like me without making things look obvious to others?
if ur still there reading then i really do thank u for taking the time and energy to read my really long email
i really do appreciate it.
So anyway fast forward i meet this female who is about 7 years older than me from offline who is bisexual and married.
we quickly befriended each other. long story short she was my first girl on girl experience. i lied to her at first about being with women before, i had told her that i had been with at least 3 women before which wasn't true. Anyway this female ended up spending the night at my house and we slept in the same bed and i dont know what it was but something inside of me told me to take the plunge and to just touch her as my curiousity was like a pang in my side.
so anyway i took the initiative and started to touch her but then she flipped it on me and took control. i couldnt believe what i was getting into. That night i couldnt believe myself and i found myself at war with my soul. everything felt so good and my body felt like literally i could melt right there on that bed. but after all was said an done i felt huge guilt and dirtyness after doing what i did almost as if i was disgusted with myself. thinking to myself like how could i allow a another woman to do what she did and that god must really hate me now.
fast forward again we did it again on 5 other different occasions with each time being better than the last.
i noticed after awhile i started to actually have feelings for her on a deeper level however i dared not to let her know that. i would feel butterflys and basically the same feelings i use to get with men are the same feelings i had for her which scared me but also had me confused.
now my things with men is that i havent been with a guy since 09 which is my daughter's father and yes i do get a lot of men trying to talk to me but i just dont be interested and what mainly turn me off from talking to any guys rights now is that usually that 9 times outta ten no matter how classy i carry myself they seem to have no respect and just only out to use u for sex and just the idea alone just makes me not even think about them like that i just focus on work and school.
back to the situation with this female , its like now ithat i've experienced being with her on those occasions it's like all the time i feel like my body crave a woman's touch like 24/7 its on my mind. and its like i seriously enjoy touching her squeezing her,tasting her. but now i think i am giving her the impression that i want to be more than friends with her ( which would be nice) and now i feel like she is trying to play me. like if u watch my video where im talking about liars im really talking about her in da video.
even when we outside i just feel like a dog in heat and be so ready to just hump her ass or whatever but because we outside i try to contain myself. she gave me my first multiple orgasm back to back i didnt even know what my body was going through when it first happened and NevER in my life have i ever experienced that with a man.
but the problem that i have is that ,i always feel like this and i still find myself trying to hang on to this female even though she likes to lie a lot but i try to hang on because of fear that i may not experience this ever again because nobody knows anything about this but me and her. it just right now at this time my mind is scared that i may be gay and its like i would prefer to have be intimate with a woman than a man anyday.
i never felt anything so passionate and sensual and being with her just feels like my body was being neglected until i met her. i dont know of any better way to explain it.
like what do i do and how do i accept these feelings that i have and how do i meet other females like me without making things look obvious to others?
if ur still there reading then i really do thank u for taking the time and energy to read my really long email
i really do appreciate it.
XOXO Honey Bii
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Bisexual
Dear Honey Bii,
I am a woman that is attracted to women, but I don't know how to meet them. I identify as bi-sexual because I still do find men attractive. I've tried being on downelink but because I identify as bi-sexual the lesbian community seems to look down on that. I am the type person that only dates one person at a time regardless. (I've never actually been with a woman intimately). Not only that, I don't sleep around period. It has been almost a year since I've been intimate and that is because I'm not in a relationship nor have I gotten close enough with anyone that I would consider it serious enough to sleep with. Why does the lesbian community think that a bisexual woman can't be faithful? How do I go about meeting a woman without hitting the club scene? Should I just say that I am a lesbian to avoid the drama? Please help...Thanks
XOXO Honey Bii
I am a woman that is attracted to women, but I don't know how to meet them. I identify as bi-sexual because I still do find men attractive. I've tried being on downelink but because I identify as bi-sexual the lesbian community seems to look down on that. I am the type person that only dates one person at a time regardless. (I've never actually been with a woman intimately). Not only that, I don't sleep around period. It has been almost a year since I've been intimate and that is because I'm not in a relationship nor have I gotten close enough with anyone that I would consider it serious enough to sleep with. Why does the lesbian community think that a bisexual woman can't be faithful? How do I go about meeting a woman without hitting the club scene? Should I just say that I am a lesbian to avoid the drama? Please help...Thanks
XOXO Honey Bii
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Spirit Day 2011
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XOXO Honey Bii
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XOXO Honey Bii
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
It's Complicat ed
Hello to you & this in advance for hearing me out in regards to this situation.
I started dating a woman 2 years ago and we got along very well. Soon she started to withdraw from me in different aspects of my life. I didn't know why until I asked her out of pure anger. She informed me that she couldn't be with me b/c I had no job (i.e i was fresh out of college) and that I couldn't provide for her like her previous gf. Her friends would tell her that I am not good b/c I am not the typical stud that pretend to be a male figure in the relationship. But as soon as she informed me of her not being happy of not having a job, I got one and started the process of getting my life together. So after that we can go our separate ways as far as relationship but can still have the friendship. I am very mellow person and I tried to be her friend, but every time we would interact with one another it would lead to something sexual or us fighting. So then I decided to cut it off completely and just handle my business and become a better me. However, we run in a similar circle. I do speak to her, but whenever shes in a drunken state she always seems to want to talk or wanna kiss me. I recently, found out that her and ex gf from before are an item. This ex gf left her in pieces and got married to another girl for a year. I want to know what is logic behind her actions??
Situation number 2 ties into the the first part. So I am gay social networking site and this lady introduces herself to me and we get to talking. Something in the back of mind tells me, "Why does the woman wanna talk to me out of the blue without me putting forth the effort". I gave her the benefit of the doubt and we started talkin and we do have great deal in common and she makes me laugh a lot. The only catch is that she is the woman that was married to my ex girlfriend exs wife. Do you think she knew that I was in a relationship with her ex wife's current gf? Do you think I should continue to commuicate with this woman??
Signed, Complicated.
Thank you so much for reaching out.
I don't think that this needs a long letter. DON'T DO IT. It seems to me that you are a reasonable/sound person. I do not understand how under any circumstance that you would think this is ok. Of course this new woman knows exactly who you are. It sounds like both of you are hurt and looking to each other for support. Please do better. There are a million people on this earth for a reason. So that we do not have to recycle each other.
P.S. Don't worry about why your ex girl friend has decided to go back to her ex. You need to move on. Let them be together in whatever capacity that they choose and better yourself.
XOXO Honey Bii
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Dilemma
Hey there,
I'm a big fan of your channel. I love your positivity and inspiration to just be who you are but I have a huge dilemma that I hope you or your partner could help me out with. I'm a lesbian with a 6yr old kid and I haven't had an issue with anyone that I dated that was insecure with me being cordial with my sons father who happens to be my ex husband we been divorce since 2008 but I separated from him in 2006. Anyways my girlfriend of 1year and some months hates the fact that I answer the phone when he calls for my son she rather me just give my son the phone without saying hello or anything. We have broken up many of time over this same issue and this last break up was the worst.she completely move out of our apartment and a lot of our family was involved it was a big mess. She said that she is willing to work on our relationship only if I agree to not answer the phone when he calls just to give the phone to my son. I told her that I am even willing to get my son a phone of his own. I have before and I don't mind doing it again at this point I'm confused cause everyone I talk to that have kids or been in the same situation tells me that it's not worth fighting for just to walk away but I love her so much and don't see myself with no one else. She is truly my soul mate.I'm finally over my sons father and everything that he did to me while we was married and the aftermath but she doesn't think that I am.. I seen the video with your partner and she mention that she had a 10 year daughter. So I was wondering has she ever had to deal with someone she was with not be secure with her being cordial or answering the phone when child's father called and if so did she leave or work it out.
XOXO Honey Bii
I'm a big fan of your channel. I love your positivity and inspiration to just be who you are but I have a huge dilemma that I hope you or your partner could help me out with. I'm a lesbian with a 6yr old kid and I haven't had an issue with anyone that I dated that was insecure with me being cordial with my sons father who happens to be my ex husband we been divorce since 2008 but I separated from him in 2006. Anyways my girlfriend of 1year and some months hates the fact that I answer the phone when he calls for my son she rather me just give my son the phone without saying hello or anything. We have broken up many of time over this same issue and this last break up was the worst.she completely move out of our apartment and a lot of our family was involved it was a big mess. She said that she is willing to work on our relationship only if I agree to not answer the phone when he calls just to give the phone to my son. I told her that I am even willing to get my son a phone of his own. I have before and I don't mind doing it again at this point I'm confused cause everyone I talk to that have kids or been in the same situation tells me that it's not worth fighting for just to walk away but I love her so much and don't see myself with no one else. She is truly my soul mate.I'm finally over my sons father and everything that he did to me while we was married and the aftermath but she doesn't think that I am.. I seen the video with your partner and she mention that she had a 10 year daughter. So I was wondering has she ever had to deal with someone she was with not be secure with her being cordial or answering the phone when child's father called and if so did she leave or work it out.
XOXO Honey Bii
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Don't Do It
Hey girl lol,
HIII! :) Thanks so much for seeing my vision. I try to stay positive. It's not enough of us out here. So here is the deal. I do not believe that I am going to a "hell" or be damned for the way that I am living my life. It is a part of me. It is in my heart. I love God. I have faith. I am a child of God. I however, am not an avid church goer. That's for different reasons that will take an entirely different email. I believe that if you take one part, scripture, or text then you will be confused on the message that God gives us. As I detailed in my video there are a lot of double standards in the Bible. If you take it literal then .00000000005% of people are living according to the text. That is basically no one. I have never met a perfect person. I have never met someone who has never lied or cheated. With that being said, I don't think that for the sake of making myself feel comfortable can I just state, "There is no one perfect". My message is do what feels right. If you feel as if living your lifestyle is in conflict with your love of God or interfering with you as a Christian then don't do it. Date men.
XOXO Honey Bii
XOXO Honey Bii
Friday, September 2, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
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