Have you ever been cheated on?

Here is a journal post from the last relationship that I had before I met my soul mate. I just so happened to be with a man. I can say now looking back... I set myself up for this one. After it happened I felt like a burden had been released from my chest. I never looked back. It was my way out. People, pay attention to yourself. If you know that you don't want to be with someone then RELEASE them. Otherwise they will find whatever they are lacking somewhere else. I apologized to him later that I in someway pushed him into the arms of another woman.

7-14-2009

So it is now 3:00am on the dot. I just caught L cheating. He said that he was going out with his cousin and hadn't returned home yet. It was 1:53am when I called him. Something inside of me told me to call him. At first I didn't want to cramp his style, but my fingers guided me to dial his number. It was meant to be. Ms. Tracy told me today that there isn't a such thing as luck, God is the one who blesses us. If my fingers had of not dialed each and every one of those numbers then I don't know where I would be right now. He made a mistake. Instead of end, he pushed the talk button. I heard it all. My hands clutched my mouth as I gasped for air. The moans where discreet at first. Then I heard him say the same things to her that was supposed to be special to me. I loved. Now, I lost. He cheated. It was excruciating to hear them. The call lasted 23 min and 17 secs. Must have been when they were over. I slid out of the apartment and of course did what any girl would have, I slashed and scratched. He must have realized that the phone was on. He hung up. He showed up. Just as my fingers guided me to call his phone, those same hands slapped his face. Multiple times. I haven't cried. I don't know if there is a reason to.